One woman is showing others that celibacy can be something worth celebrating.
An OnlyFans star has sworn off sex after a terrible breakup — saying “no man” deserves her if they’re not willing to get to know her.
Neyleen Ashley, 34, has 2.5 million followers on Instagram and connects with her followers worldwide regularly — but can’t say the same about her real-life relationships.
The Florida-based woman made the life-altering decision after her ex-boyfriend decided he didn’t want to have a family with her, and broke up with her after she suffered a miscarriage.
“I was four months into my pregnancy with a baby girl,” Ashley, who is mom to an 11 and 15-year-old, sadly recalled to Nude PR. “I even had a gender reveal — but I lost the baby at month four.”
The combination of the breakup and heartbreaking loss made the 34-year-old determined to make a change in her life, spurred by her ex’s inability to “live his truth” and not tell her he didn’t want a family.
“Now the enjoyment and euphoria I once got from sex is gone,” she explained.
Ashley, who earns $62,600 a month on OnlyFans, admits her vow of celibacy can be difficult as she has a “high sex drive,” but she’s determined not to break it.
“I’m afraid of people that just want to use me for sex and never get to know me as a person, or my heart,” she admitted
“I believe that energies get transferred through sexual intercourse and throughout the last few years, sex made me feel empty afterward,” she continued. “Never fulfilled, never loved… I felt like a rag doll.”
The OnlyFans star said her break from sex has also helped her recognize and diagnose her sex addiction, so she may now work on improving herself.
“I couldn’t leave the house because I was at home masturbating and had to have sexual release multiple times a day, if not I just couldn’t function,” she admitted, likening her addition to smoking. “It felt like a cigarette I had to take a puff of, or I couldn’t go about my day without my fix.”
“That also came with the attention I was trying to receive from men,” she continued. “The sexting, the pictures back and forth, the dopamine hits I got from successfully pursuing them.”
Ashley is now spending time focusing on herself and finding a meaningful relationship.
“I find it [dating] difficult because I instantly tell anyone that’s remotely interested in me that I’m celibate, but when we hang out, it always ends up that they want more,” she admitted.
“They try to convince me that my celibacy journey will end with them, that I won’t be able to resist,” she continued. “But I’m a Leo, and if there’s one thing about Leos, it’s that we’re hard-headed.”
Although she is tempted sometimes to give in, Ashley is loving her new approach to sex.
“Sometimes I feel like I want to give in, because it’s what I’m used to, but the benefit is I don’t have to feel like a chore to these men that don’t care about me,” she reflected.
“If I could stay celibate forever at this point, I would,” the mom quipped. “But who knows – this is a new journey for me, and I’m loving it more than I love sex.”
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